Chapter 75 - Extra
“When I grow up, I will be a glorious people’s policeman like my parents!” Luo Yi, seven or eight years old, stood in front of the sofa. Luo Su, holding a police cap, climbed to the sofa and crowned him. The police cap was worn on Luo Yi’s head.
Luo Su stepped on the sofa before staring at Luo Yi, with her hands behind her back, looking at Luo Yi solemnly, pouting her mouth, chewing baby fat on her cheeks, milking her milk, “Comrade Luo Yi, please Don’t live up to the expectations of the party and the people! “
Luo Yi immaturely saluted, “Yes!”
At the end of the ceremony, Luo Su laughed and rolled into Luo Yi’s arms.
“When my brother becomes a police officer, no one dares to bully me!”
Luo Yi hugged his fat butt, “Is anyone bullying you?”
Luo Su didn’t care at all, “Yes! But I don’t care about those little farts. I have an elder brother, they don’t!”
After many years, the young and firm vows still echoed in my ears.
Luo Yi asked herself not to be a grudge, but sometimes she couldn’t help but think, if he did not lose Su Su then, Su Su would not be kidnapped, and his parents would not be sacrificed as a result.
He knew and remembered that it was all his fault.
So in the second half of his life, he never had the right to choose happiness again.
He has to take good care of Grandpa and Su Su, for this reason, he can give up his childhood dream to study medicine.
Both the police and the doctor are saving lives and are no different.
Luo Su did not die, Luo Yi thought that from then on, Luo Su would live a stable life, but unexpectedly, Luo Su had detected aplastic anemia.
As a medical student, he naturally knew what impact the disease would have on Luo Su’s future.
Fortunately, he matched Luo Su’s bone marrow.
On the day of adulthood, he took Luo Su to the hospital for a bone marrow transplant.
The operation was very successful. He did not regret going into the operating room because it was his younger brother. Even he was fortunate that he studied medicine and became a doctor.
As long as Luo Su is good, let him pay for everything.
Later, Luo Su wanted to enter the entertainment industry.
Luo Yi really didn’t want to let him in.
Not to mention that the entertainment industry is a big dyeing tank. When he entered that place, he was completely incapable of protecting him. Even his body just after surgery was not allowed to enter the entertainment industry.
The trick of crying and making troubles was performed all over the house. In the end, Grandpa came forward and promised to let him enter the entertainment industry.
During that time, Luo Yi was really angry. She was disgusted with her body and had to enter a place like the entertainment industry.
For about a month, he turned a blind eye to Luo Su. Even if he called home, he did not answer the phone. He wanted to teach this wayward child.
But Luo Su was better. For two months, there was no phone call.
Who teaches who?
Luo Yi couldn’t bear it and secretly asked him for news.
Look at the heartless little guy entertaining himself. Only he was sulking in the past two months?
However, Luo Yi also figured it out, as long as Luo Su was happy.
Maybe it is because of the sequelae after the operation and sometimes memory loss.
Sometimes five minutes ago, I forget everything after five minutes, and sometimes I suddenly flash a child’s face.
It was a child he didn’t remember.
In fact, the sequelae are ridiculous. Luo Yi is a doctor. He knows the sequelae of what disease brings, and how a bone marrow transplant can affect the brain.
It was just his wishful thinking that he should find an excuse to convince himself.
When the news of Luo Su’s hospitalization due to physical reasons came, he was not without anger, but when worry was greater than anger, everything else was less important.
But he didn’t quite understand. Luo Su, who woke up from the hospital, seemed a little different.
The formerly tolerant Luo Su became a little strange to him.
The countless patients he has seen, how could it have been so calm overnight if it had not been experienced.
Luo Ding couldn’t let go of her mind due to the dimples between her eyebrows.
Perhaps because of this hospitalization, Luo Su’s career in the entertainment industry seems to have grown.
In the past, he always laughed at Luo Su. He didn’t act, and was always entertaining.
Luo Su often didn’t care, she said, “Cute laughter is also one of my jobs.”
But when he really acted as he wished, Luo Yi regretted it again.
The Ji Yun is deep and looks like a gentleman, but he can see that the bottom of his eyes is deep.
He didn’t want Luo Suyi to fall into Ji Yunshen’s trap. He had never experienced darkness, and always treated others with kindness. He was too soft-hearted, and one day he would suffer.
After a lapse of many years, Ji Yunshen remembered the visit to the film and television city, and still did not know what kind of emotion he should face.
Not only was he glad he went, but he often asked himself why he went.
Xue Yan is a well-known and old director. He grew up together when he was a child.
He entrusted Luo Su to Xue Xun, who did not expect that Xue Xun was also useless and allowed fans to sneak into Luo Su’s room.
Originally I just wanted to go to the crew to see him and comfort him. I didn’t expect a photo …
Luo Yi laughed helplessly.
If it weren’t for that photo, perhaps he would have used Luo Su as his brother for a lifetime.
Seeing that photo, he suddenly understood why there was no picture of Luo Su’s childhood. He used to think that his grandfather was afraid that he would blame himself for being sad, so he burned it, but later he thought that he was afraid of knowing the truth.
Luo Su is not his brother.
No, you can’t say that.
Luo Su is his brother, but Luo Su was buried in flames with his parents in the kidnapping case more than ten years ago.
And now he is in front of him, he doesn’t know who it is, only he knows that he called him “Luo Su” for more than ten years, blocking him from his brother and taking care of him for more than ten years.
Without her own identity, she willingly replaced Luo Su’s life.
Luo Su could accept it, but he couldn’t accept it.
Luo Yi decided not to go through, and he began to actively cooperate with the treatment and went to psychiatry.
She was isolated from the world during the treatment, and woke up every morning, digesting everything in her head, Luo Yi felt that she was going crazy.
Really going crazy.
Sometimes I think about myself, I’m crazy.
He can always see ‘Luo Su’ standing in front of a fire, all covered with blood, pointing at him, accusing him, why not save him, and treat others as brothers.
But at a blink of an eye, it was Luo Su who stood next to him, holding his palms, and looked at him timidly with a pair of big misty eyes. He asked softly, “Don’t you want me?”
He didn’t speak, Luo Su continued to cry and asked him, “Are you not hurting me?”
“Luo Su” screamed in horror before the fire, and disappeared into the sky.
Back and forth, he could not get the forgiveness of Luo Su and he could not convince himself to accept Luo Su.
Luo Yi felt really crazy.
Maybe tomorrow, maybe night.
Grandpa came when he was most difficult and wanted to give up.
He shoved him the only photo of his brother two hours later, “Luo Yi, Grandpa knows that you are a good boy, and Su Su too. These years, Grandpa has treated him as his grandson for a long time. I do n’t blame you, your parents do n’t blame you, Su Su does n’t blame you, when Grandpa did n’t want you to be a police officer, he just did n’t want you to always live in guilt and the past. Hope you can be happy. “
He looked at the photo of himself and Luo Su when he was a child, and smiled brightly and simply.
The child in the photo had not had time to see the world well enough, and before he knew how wonderful his life would be, he stopped at the age of three.
It was his fault that he did not take good care of him.
He held the photo and wept bitterly.
That night, he saw ‘Luo Su’ again. He was still three years old. Standing in front of the fire, his body was completely stain-free, and he smiled cutely. He squatted down and wanted to hug him, but ‘ Luo Su’s tiptoe, wiping the tears on his face.
“Brother, you need to help me take good care of him.” Luo Su laughed with a thick cheek. “Brother, forget me later, I am with my parents now, and I am not scared at all, but I I don’t want to see my brother feel guilty. “
“I hope my brother is happy. Even without my parents and me, I will be happy.”
That night, Luo Yi hid in the quilt. Mingyangyang March, he shivered like deep winter.
But in the end, he and the past were relieved.
“Do you hate him?” Ji Yun came to him deeply, because tonight is Luo Su’s birthday.
Not ‘Luo Su’, but Luo Su’s.
He sat smoking on the windowsill for a long time, and his throat was so dry that he couldn’t say a word. He looked at the dark night, the bright light, the eyes were sour, but there was no tear.
How could he hate Luo Su? Why did Ji Yunshen think so?
He should thank Luo Su, if it was not Luo Su, he would have been crazy.
He just hates himself, hating himself forever being powerless.
“If you hate him, I hope you can look at the love for so many years, forgive him, and let him forgive yourself.”
Why not forgive yourself? Luo Yi did not understand.
You are a victim, and it is not your fault to be abducted. Why not forgive yourself?
“I have no other ideas. I just want Luo Su to unload her burden and live.”
Luo Yi understood the meaning of Ji Yunshen, and he was very tired of carrying the burden to live.
Luo Yi turned and nodded, “Okay.”
Four years later, Luo Su wished to become a hot acting actor. He still lives in Luo’s family. Grandpa’s health is getting worse and worse. Luo Su quits her job and concentrates on taking care of Grandpa.
On the 29th birthday of Luo Yi, they were in the hospital.
Luo Su came to him with the cake and candles on it.
The swaying candlelight made him flicker.
“I have a wish …”
“Brother, since it is a wish, then don’t say it, it won’t work.”
“it is good.”
Luo Yi had a desire hidden in his heart. He used to want to tell Luo Su, but Luo Su didn’t listen.
Since I didn’t listen, let it always be a wish.