NOVEL NEXT Chapter 117: Her Thought
１１７． Her Thought
Most of my memories when I was alive were filled with suffering.
I mean, my life was supposed to be filled with happiness when I was alive.
And yet it was painted black with pain, suffering, sorrow, frustration, adversary, and sadness.
――
A quick death should release me from all of the suffering, yet I wasn't even allowed to die. I became a plaything, not much better than livestock.
My tendons were cut to prevent me from escaping, food that was akin to garbage was stuffed into my mouth, and then―― I was forced to become seedbed for goblins, forced to give birth to goblin so many times to the point that it slowly grinded my sanity.
Death only came to embrace me when my body became so tattered.
In the end, not even Dear God saved me. Even though I wished so many times to die.
And just when I thought that I could finally rest in peace, it didn't happen, that's why I kept cursing the world as I drowned into a murky, bottomless pool..It felt like a nightmare, I couldn't remember it either.
The one who saved me back then was―― My master.
『Sup―― You went through a bad time too, eh?』
『How about working with me to end this chain of suffering?』
To be very honest, I'm fully aware that My Master was… A madman, or madwoman not that I care which one.
I mean, a normal person wouldn't think about destroying the entire world just because they discovered that there was no afterlife and everyone just ended up reincarnating, right?
I mean, even a prankster like me never thought about such things even as I died while cursing the world. It was obvious that the strange one was my master, right? Well I guess she really was a madman.
I took her hand. Not that I had any other choice.
At that point, I didn't really care, I just wanted to end my suffering.
I didn't even care even if I reincarnated, yet even that opportunity was not granted to me.
That's just how depressed I was back then.
My gratitude for My Dear Master who saved me was bigger than the self-important god who ignored me no matter how much I wished for salvation.
I won't end it like that.
Killing all living creatures was a form of revenge too.
In that case, sure, I'm in.
I will kill everything, destroy everything!!!
Thus I got resurrected by a Lich.
Against my expectations, it was a pleasant experience. I was free to do anything as long as I had magical power.
There was no need to worry about food or water. And not being able to sleep was a saving grace. I mean, I was sure that I would have a nightmare if I slept. Spare me from that, please.
After becoming an undead, I was obviously different from when I was alive.
The memories that are lost in the Spirit Realm and many other things could be compensated with magical power. But my train of thought became too stale.
Well, not that I care about it.
But I had no idea that I had an affinity with darkness attribute magic. I had no idea about this since my magical power had never been appraised before.
Thus I took various lessons about necromancy from Dear Master―― Not even in my wildest imagination could I expect that I would live right under the Demon King’s Castle.
Life was full of unexpected things.
I'm already dead though. Hohohoho.
I enjoyed the necromancy lesson. I had to start by learning how to read though. Only after I learnt reading did I become convinced that my Dear Master was truly a madman, as more and more corpses piled up.
To be honest, despite agreeing with Dear Master's thought, I felt really complicated inside.
I mean, I used to be a human.
That's why.
「I don't care. I am just the same human race who was killed by the demon race.」
When Jilbagias said so as he looked at the corpses of the sword saints that were lined up before us.
「――You're also the victim of the Demon King Army right?」
Eh?
In a normal situation, I would be annoyed at being treated as a former human.
But do I not care after seeing their corpse?
It's not like I 『Don't care』, I'm not Dear Master.
Is he stupid or what? Did he forget whose race it was that caused me to become like this?
It's you guys… Everything is the Demon Race’s fault――!!
Yet how dare you to say those words as if you could see through my heart!
What can you, a prince who was raised with a silver spoon, understand about my situation!! Rather, what do you want me to do!? Mourn for those sword saints? In front of you, a demon prince? Do you take me for an idiot?
Too bad for you though, I hadn't prepared the right expression for that――
That matter aside, I erased my expression since I had no idea what kind of expression I had to make now.
… I really had no answer to his question.
「Either way, the human race is bound to be destroyed right?」
Thus I took it upon myself and replied with such a jest.
「Since that's the case, we should end their suffering as fast as possible, they are bound to suffer anyway.」
And added casually while shrugging my shoulders――
This tone wasn't acting.
I gave up on the future of humankind. Dear Master was the kind of woman who will do what she says. The alliance was doomed from the very beginning.
Even though I wasn't their ally, it was an undeniable fact that I became undead. I would destroy the Holy Religion till none of them were left…
Good grief, I didn't want to feel helpless till I returned to the yellow spring.
「…」
Jilbagias looked dumbfounded upon hearing my answer. Did this dolt finally notice just how thick-skinned he was? He had the kind of face as if he had just been scolded by his mama.
He looks really adorable without his horns though.
If he looks weak like before.
… I might end up snapping his neck.
What's gonna happen if that happens?
He should thank me for managing to rein in my emotions.
「I see.」
Emotion vanished from Jilbagias face before he turned around.
「I asked such a thoughtless question.」
I wish he would think twice before he spoke.
「… Enma told me that she hates unnecessary suffering, but I agree with her. That's why I would grant them a swift death if I fought the humans.」
「Hee… How kind of you.」
Truly kind, to the point that I wanted to vomit due to the hypocrisy.
「I also paid attention in this regard since I'm used to being one of them. I won't give an easy death to a goblin though.」
I'll make them regret the fact that they were ever born in this world.
「…」
Jilbagias was looking at me without saying anything in particular. What's his problem? Just say it if you have something to say. I had nothing to lose for you to look at me with such sad eyes.
Yes, I had nothing to lose.
It was only a matter of time before the human race was destroyed by the Demon King Army.
But it doesn't mean that they are going to be extinct.
They would become our comrade, regardless of their shape.
Once that happens―― You guys will be the next target.
We'll be having fun in destroying the Demon Kingdom.
Demon Kingdom aside… I doubt I could exterminate every single living creature though.
I mean, I had no doubt that I love birds and flowers.
Dear Master is an existence akin to god for me.
Yet even though she couldn't defeat the Demon King, that person was such a monster…
Not that I could do anything about that.
I enjoyed necromancy, but I knew my limit.
I tried to summon my mother and my father's soul as soon as I could use necromancy.
But it was no good. Their soul had long since lost its shape.
I even tried to summon my childhood friend Alex, the boy who got along with me a long time ago.
Only to fail again.
Everyone was already gone.
We might be able to meet again if there was a world after death, but…
When I looked at it again, they were just reincarnated.
The people who I wanted to meet again when I was alive were already gone for good.
Yeah, maybe it was around the time I realized that fact.
I care less about literally anything.
This boring world should just explode.
… Or not.
I mean, there's still a lot of interesting things!
Let's end it with everyone!
Let's destroy the Demon Kingdom!
I have been a master of finding a lot of interesting things since a long time ago!
Ahahahahahaha!!
… And, Your Highness.
Dear Master seems to be taking a liking to you.
And seems to be wanting to make you into one of us――
But personally, I don't think that you'll yield to us.
What would a Dear Master do in that situation? Will she give up on you?
Or turn you into one of her puppets?
Or will she, get bored of you――
In that situation, I, your senior, will finish you off.
And then I'll get my revenge on you.
… Just how much do you think we're suffering because of you and your damned race?
There's no way I'm not looking forward to such a day to come.
Right, Your Highness?
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